why this could change my life

i don't know what to write, i usually keep everything to myself, but I think slowly, i'm putting myself out there, starting with reviews of movies in Letterboxd. Now I'm here, planning to start my own blog, I know I will not immediately find my spark, but I feel the more I delay this, the more I will regret not starting it sooner. This year I made a couple of resolutions, one of them is this, it's already been over a month to get here and I am starting now.

I feel the more I formalize my thinking, the better I retain in my memory, I feel I have undiagnosed ADHD, so I explore and learn a lot of stuff, and last year or so, texting more helped me present myself in the way I desired. My vocabulary, while now may feel limited, has considerably improved, and I think will improve further as I do it more often. I like to keep these articles without major use of AI, keep it raw and close to myself, something that I want to painfully improve. I am not saying I will not use it, but I would hold the urge to use it, and consider this a meditative reflection with myself.

I understand that sometimes the words will not flow, sometimes I will not have anything to say, but whether it's just 100 words or even a 10,000-word short story, I will try to keep it regular and put the effort into continuing this. Because I do a lot, and I remember only when I'm sharing with someone. I'm not overly witty or poetic with my words or precise and structured with my thoughts, but I'm sure this will be a great place to grow for me. So, here we go...